12/27/2023
Victim is different from any other song that I've written
Because it's an exaggeration of myself
I am well aware that I've hurt a lot of people from dating
And I hated that about myself
The only way for me to get my emotions out is to write
So I wrote a version of me if I was shameless
I thought if I wrote a song about my flaws
I would be able to get it out of my system
For the longest time I had mixed feelings about Victim
My friends loved it but I felt a little uncomfortable
Singing about being proud of my vices
Only recently I decided to make peace with it
It's a song that I wrote
And it doesn't represent who I am as a person
Hurting others is a huge trigger for me
In college I would drop out of my classes left and right
Because I "felt" like I would fail
But dropping choir was different
Because there are other people involved
I can't sneak out
The whole choir is important and I would screw that up by leaving
After years of therapy and introspection
I've gotten to a place where I am excited to go back to school
I made sure not to overwhlem myself by taking too many classes
I have a license so now I can drive myself to school
I've grown in so many ways
I go back to school on January 16th
Wish me luck :)