6/21/2025

8 years ago today I finished writing my first original song

Just me and my ukulele singing about my experience with depression

it was a bit on the nose using water as a metaphor as a competitive swimmer 

but…

1/13/2025

I typically write for myself

but I always post my music in hopes that it resonates with someone else too

All the songs on this mini EP were gifts to loved ones

I post almost all my songs on…

11/4/2024

My therapist thinks I'm OCD

...and autistic

...and ADHD

I'm already diagnosed with bipolar disorder

I was told I couldn't get diagnosed for OCD until I'm "emotionally stable for 2-3 months"

Of course, I'm emotionally unstable BECAUSE I'm not…

9/27/2024

my therapist asked me 

why i think theyre not the one 

tried to come up with a reason 

but i just came up with none 

close my eyes and make a wish 

upon a shooting star

i can see…

8/20/2024

My two perfect days in 10 years would look calm and productive. I would wake up at the same time every day next to the love of my life. Everything is all set for me to go to work.…

8/7/2024

Part 1: taking up space

I wrote What's the Catch after a first date with a guy

I could hear a band behind it as I was writing

I wanted to make it happen so I did

I commissioned…

3/27/24

i am guilty of associating

art with ego

when i see a painting

i dont think of how it makes me feel

i think of how beautiful it is

and how long it must've taken them

how much skill…

3/2/2024

a moment of weaknes

i linger a while

a little speechless in a

bittersweet smile

can't close the book

that i started to write

i dont want to say it

but i think i just might

itd be so…

2/28/2024

maybe im not "happier" when im alone

maybe im just more myself when im alone

and i know shes someone special

i dont see her too often anymore

but id love to see her more

shes silly

shes caring

…

12/29/2023

I wrote Wondering about my journey discovering my sexuality

This was written a year before she kissed my breath away

At the time I thought I was in love with a boy

But my anxiety reguarding my sexuality took…

12/28/2023

I wrote The World after a few month long situationship

He told me on the second date that he wasn't looking for anything serious

But I kept dating him anyway in hopes to change his mind

We got along…

12/27/2023

Victim is different from any other song that I've written

Because it's an exaggeration of myself

I am well aware that I've hurt a lot of people from dating

And I hated that about myself

The only way for…

12/26/2023

I wrote The Tower during my unsuccessful songwriting challenge

Of one song a day for the month of April

(I did 10)

I tried to base all of them off of different tarot cards

For The Tower I wanted…

12/26/2023

I came out as bisexual when I was 15

Which was bold because I figured it out when I was 15

Unfortunately I had a lot of internalized biphobia and doubt

All the way until I was 21

It…

12/24/2023

I wrote Pen Pal to ask out the girl I liked

It worked

We were long distance

A whole 7 hour drive away from each other

We met for the first time at gay prom

When I visited her…

12/22/2023

I wrote All You Want about someone who I had feelings for

And who had feelings for me

But was still in a relationship with someone else

It was my way of convincing him to leave her

We dated…

12/22/2023

Nora is based off of the book

The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

I related to this book so much it was creepy

It's about a girl gets to try on different lives she could've lived

If she made…

12/17/2023

Over the past 6 years

I've been posting originals on youtube

Immediately after I finish a song

I would post it

I never waited for a "better" time to post

If I finished at 3am it was out by…

I thought I had given up on properly releasing Fate

Until Elliott Jacobs reached out to me

I knew if I wanted to record Fate the way I wanted

I would need help

And he came to me as I…

8/16/23

If you know me then you know I love penpal letters

I have one penpal from Canada and another from Germany (love u guys)

Until recently, I had what was essentially a writer’s block for letters

I didn’t want…

8/19/2023

Fate is one of my favorite songs that I've ever written

The chord progression alone gives me a visceral reaction

In a way that none of my other songs do

The song itself is about coming to terms with…

8/14/23

I lost myself again

But that’s okay

I know I have the strength 

To get back on track

I confused wants with needs

Without a routine 

I forgot what my goals were

No goals feels like no purpose 

Which…

The following is a journal entry written in pencil from 8/8/2020:

I should try writing with pen

Maybe that'll help me practice being okay with not being perfect

But with pencil I feel like I have more control

More friction…

7/29/2023

As a child I knew what I liked

And I wasn’t ashamed

I would force my friends to watch my favorite shows

We made Google sites dedicated to roleplaying (yeah, yeah, ik)

I was unapologetic

I lost…