12/26/2023
I came out as bisexual when I was 15
Which was bold because I figured it out when I was 15
Unfortunately I had a lot of internalized biphobia and doubt
All the way until I was 21
It wasn't until I kissed one girl in particular
When I was able calm the internal turmoil
she kissed my breath away is about that girl
I've dated girls in the past but my anxiety was always stronger than my feelings
Every kiss I would check in on how I was feeling:
Is this how I'm supposed to feel?
Was I feeling enough?
I was never able to stay in the moment
I couldn't be present with the women I was with
For some reason this girl in particular made it easier for me
Maybe it was because I've known of her for a long time
Maybe it was because we were both emotionally open
But I haven't questioned my sexuality since
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If you're reading this
I'm sorry I was so forward
I was so relieved to find a girl that I could be comfortable around
I was afraid I wouldn't find that anywhere else
Thank you for our times together
You've helped me in so many ways
I hope you'll forgive me